Tigger

Sunday, October 10, 2010

BACK!!

Wow, it has been more than 1.5 years since i last stepped into my tigger's blog.. really miss it quite alot, juz read through all my previous post.. was very funny n i laughed at myself... laugh at my innocent, laugh at my lousy singlish n also i miss the laughter tt i used to have..

Life was so simple yet fulfilling for me.. meeting with friends, going to work, even doing household chores at home can make me happy n i record it down... so many things happened during this duration tt makes me grow up, control my emotions, learn to tolerate n also learn to forgive, forget n dun care.. i thin i should really b back to this blog, type out my feelings, emotions n also to record what is happening around me.. it is really meaningful when u read about what you typed n encountered 5 years ago? hoping to "recover" to the crazyviolentnana tt i used to b.. i really miss her alot! 超大条神经 n also the 'pin pin piang piang' type.. =)

Mayb i should include wat happened to me during this 1.5 yrs? Everything changed, my life change, my environment change, my thinking change, my confident level change n even my heart change.. For sch, I got into sim -uol last yr n this yr is my last yr in sch.. not enjoying it much, caz no interaction with the others at all.. it seems like i m only there just to get my degree.. n surprisingly, i failed my law.. which is the first subject/module which i ever failed before.. how terrible this is to me.. For relationship, I was attached last yr after my taiwan trip, but this yr after my 21st bdae, i broke up.. alot of problems n matters which i think i will not forgt so easily, so shall not pin down.. meanwhile, not ready for the third to come.. n perhaps, i m afraid to get injured all over again..

I have learnt to b sensitive enough to what is happening all around me, but mayb i should not b so sensitive.. haha.. how contradicting it is to me.. mayb i m still feeling very messy? or tt i m lost in the real world.. lots of thins ve happened, whether good or bad, especially friendship.. i nearly cut off my friendship with my lao peng you, y is it so? dun wish to elaborate further too.. caz i wil remember it.. mayb some of them will think tt it's very dramatic, but to me.. friendship is very important.. i cant afford to lose any of them.. especially those who is close to me.. really, i meant it..

For my heart, i think i m no longer s strong s i used to b? strong in the outside but weak in the inside.. tears can easily flow out of my eyes whenever i recalled things tt is so unhappy.. trying to let go, trying to forgt, but somehow, i juz cant.. which make me so busy now, caz i realised tt when one is busy with things, she will ve no time to even think of anything... days juz passed.. becoming more emotional? mayb, perhaps..

Work wise, i left sakae, like finally after everyone is gone.. BUT i missed it alot.. life in LV wasnt tt bad, but somehow i dun feel tt it is where i belong too.. mayb too many colleagues, then everyone have their little clinques.. =) but there r also nice ppl there.. =)

S for my life? I put on braces not long ago, trying to adapt to it, hopefully i can.. mayb i should slim down somemore? nth much to add on, but juz wanna get out of singapore badly.. wanna to go taiwan, melbourne n stay for awhile.. =) shall stop thinking of the unnecessary, focus on what i wan, b realistic.. though i know it's difficult, but i still have to strive for it.. shall say jia you for myself.. N also my favourite quote: stay hapy always no matter what happen.. =)))

Lena Thng blogged @ 12:01 AM