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Friday, March 23, 2007

Y is life so sad???

Y is it tt when some ppl give birth, we r like so hapy, but when someone passaway, we r always so sad; cryin??? Though i often told myself tt when someone passaway, it doesnt mean tt it is a bad thin, caz he or she mayb hapy up there, but when i heard the news, i stil canot tahan.. the first reaction is wat??? followed by omg, then stunt, wordless.. i reali dun noe hw to describe the feelin tt i gt when i heard the news.. i tried to prevent myself fr cryin, stop the tears, n bear, stop myself fr thinkin, but i cant, juz stonin.. lookin at the crowd, i wan to find somewhere where no one can c mi, i dun noe wat to do, dun noe where i m headin, nearli wanted to cross the red light, but suddenli stopped..

I dunnoe wat i m doin??? I wanted to find someone to rely on, to tok to, but i noe tt no one is free at the moment.. i had to b independent, holdin back my tears is vez tirin, so i let it out at a place where no one could c mi.. But within awhile, i had to gt back to my old self again, i dun wan my friends to c mi in this state, but i m reali vez tired, i m sad, speechless..

But i regained most of myself back in 15 minutes, i m stil the cheerful n crazy lena u ve since, but inside, i m already different.. After the movie, i m back wif a tired heart, depressed n feelin even more independent..

Though this post mayb a bit sad, but i believe i wil recover in awhile's time, give mi a few days ba, n the crazy n violent nana wil b back..

Lena Thng blogged @ 12:36 AM