Tigger

Friday, August 04, 2006

life is nv smooth-sailin..

todae was the last day of our presentation, finali the day has come.. i woke up quite earli n i thought tt my group is meetin at 10.30am la.. then i slowli, slowli take my time.. in the end then found out tt we r actuali meetin at 10am.. omg... sorx siax, then on my way to sch, i saw peiyu.. aiyo, she late for sch la, overslept..

The moment i reached sch, i went to print out the hadnouts liao le.. vez crowded, but nvm la.. then i went up to find wendy they all, 3 groups (my family) all take turns for presentation s it serves s a rehearsal for us.. About 11 plus, then all of us went to the rm liao le lo... basicali the whole presentation was like quite smooth la, though i was like a bit tensed s well.. but surprisingli, mr chey was like quite gd in our topic, then he asked the questions was like all killin question la.. wa lau.. thought we could like bluff through some info, but juz too bad la... haha...

After the presentation, we all went to makan at FJ, then went to walk walk lo.. haha.. ppl involved gt mi, zac, erica, jiayi, rhadji n jeff.. 6 of us.. haha. though walkin in heels was like so damn pain la, but hor, no choice la, we went to orchard somemore lo.. then i also bought a eeyore fr there, but a bit sad la, caz no tigger liao le.. haix.. nvm, juz my luck~~

After walkin around for til abt 4 plus, then we went to the grand cathey to catch a movie, 'Click'.. it's abt a person who holds a remote control tt is so powerful tt it's able to fast forward everythin in life.. but durin the moment tt he fast forward, he miss out alot of thins.. even the death of his father.. n in the end, it thought him a lesson, it is to put his family in front of his work.. n tt treasure every moment of life.. It's a sad n meaninful story.. reali.. after movie, we went to la kopi, n saw 'chou chu ming' but nt in the mood to say anythin la..

Conclusion:
Actuali, down in everyon's heart, at a side corner, there is bound to ve sad memories, it's juz tt we din wan to thin or rather trash it our at times.. hw ever, if the sad memories ever leaked out or was ever mentioned, it's wil b terrible, s the person wil keep thinkin abt it.. actuali i also dun noe y, though since young, i noe tt we should look forward to everythin everydae n stop thinkin abt thins tt's unhapy.. but i stil feel tt whenever we thin abt it, it wil b damn painful for us to take tt n we wil b even out of control..

Mayb the problems lies wif mi, sometimes i feel tt i m actuali quite a troublesome ppl n tt i dun even noe wat's wrong wif mi.. i feel tt i m a as n tt i dun noe wat's goin on in life.. life is like so tirin for mi, i ve lots of thins to thin abt everydae, abt these, abt tt.. simply dun understand, no motivation at all la.. life is so dead, hw i wish tt i wil die soon n tt everythin wil b put to an end.. but back to thin again, i m so useless la.. n tt it's so silly.. haha.. but hor, reali vez sick n tired abt everythin.. feel like ventin out everythin, but simply cant.. wan to trash out all the anger n all the sadness, n everythin tt ve been accumulatin inside mi for so long.. but yet i cant.. simply dun noe y.. though i wil like feel sad sometimes, but when everythin is like over, i wil feel a knot in mi.. teach mi hw to do.. i simply gt no idea..

Hw i wished i was back to the childhood times, where i dun need to thin abt anythin n care abt anythin.. though i noe tt my friends care for mi, but i thin tt they wil feel tired one of these days, caz i m already gtin tired abt myself n all those irritatin thins tt i ve done so far.. i feel tt i had actuali been causin so much trouble for them, shouldn't i juz carry on wif life myself n stop makin so much trouble??? but mayb i wan somethin which i dun noe?? actuali i feel quite bad towards those friends (e.g. jeff n rhadji) whu had to acc mi through the nite, then i was like so guilty la.. wad type of friend m i?? CMI la...

Though i noe tt a lot of my friends care for mi, n tt the onli capital tt i had us friends, but i cant simply keep botherin them everydae.. but i reali need to say a big thx for them.. thx so much for all the care n corcern.. mayb it's a obstacle for mi ba, n i reali need to overcome all these.. but somehw life is juz so difficult to gt easy n life is nv smooth-sailin.. Thinkin back abt the movie, i feel tt i m actuali quite similar to the man in the movie.. time is also passin vez fast for mi, but i failed to realise tt, every moment of the life is juz so precious n tt family is stil the most important.. though i noe the logic damn long ago, but mayb it's the attitude tt i need to adjust myself to ba, n tt i need to keep remindin abt it.. hw i wish i can ve someone there, close to mi n tt i can rely on whenever i m down.. haha, though there is no such person, but there is a group of friends out there where i can always borrow a shoulder n they wil always b there for mi~~

Lena Thng blogged @ 11:47 PM