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Saturday, June 10, 2006

juz some thoughts...

feelin vez stress juz nw... dun noe y also, haix thin i pile too much thins together liao le.. haha.. Thinkin of my next week schedule, i feel so shack, dun noe wat to do also, dun noe whether i can hang on to next week or nt.. a lot of question marks...

Everythin juz seems to b a burden to mi la.. e.g. cca, work, friendship, sch.. haha.. feelin the responsibility comin.. suddenli realised tt my badminton is nt tt gd after all, i should do a reflection on it.. mayb i lacked of trainin.. somemore goin to play a friendli match liao le.. hw??? somemore i stil workin after the friendli match, can i reali make it or nt.. i m nt sure.. some of them ask mi to let go of one cca, or rather, dun work one of these days, then juz relax, but the reason is tt, i cant forgo work, caz i need $$.. then another problem is tt, i dun like the feelin of loneliness.. i put a tight schedule, caz i dun wan to any-o-hw thin of other thins.. but on the other hand, startin to feel stress.. haha, vez weird hor, i reali dun understand myself..

Mayb i m a weird person afterall, nt normal.. i noe i had lots of friends tt i can confine in, but on the other hand, it's sometimes hard to say out.. I wan to learn to b independent, but hw can achieve it?? i dun noe.. Mayb i always hapy-go-lucky, then in the end, at the end of the day, when i reflect, i feel tt a lot of thins is comin up.. all come at one shot.. n i juz wan to let go... but hw??? u tel mi... Mayb i m juz too emotional todae, tt i cant stop myself fr cryin la.. thin too much, then in the end, did myself more harm..

I thin mayb one day i reali need to relax myself n do somethins tt i had always wan to do.. juz dun care abt anythin.. but i thin to achieve this, it wil b a bit difficult la.. haha.. for mi.. i thin i reali need someone to tok to when i m feelin so depressed.. sometimes i even feel tt hw come i m so useless... like i ve no skills at all, n y m i on this earth... mayb i thin too much? haha, i dun noe also.. anywy, is there any1 out there to tel mi whether wat should i do?? mayb the whole thin is damn simple, but i juz put it in a vez messy way??? haha.. i thin i goin crazy soon..

Or rather somehw i need to vent out everythin.. though nw i can stil control my emotional, but then when wil it explode again.. i m nt sure.. i m so sad, shack n depressed.. HELP~~if u happen to read this blog, dun ask mi wat happent to mi, caz i also dun noe.. if i noe, then i wont b bloggin abt this liao le... haha.. but i thin i should b fine after a gd rest, then b a hapy lena again tml.. haha.. n i m workin tml.. yup, should buck up... jia you!!!

Lena Thng blogged @ 12:01 AM